Many people have been confused about my recent associations. While I will not apologize for believing other people's lies, I understand that some may have pushed me away for believing the lies.
Forgiveness is hard especially after betrayal. I think of it as a process, much like a plane crash, where one has to find the black box first to understand who to forgive and who to hold to account, but first, the wounded and dead must be tended and we must heal.
We have all been deceived from time to time. The only possible reaction is to disassociate and repudiate, which you are doing.
Keep to doing what you know to be the "right" thing.
Forgiveness is hard especially after betrayal. I think of it as a process, much like a plane crash, where one has to find the black box first to understand who to forgive and who to hold to account, but first, the wounded and dead must be tended and we must heal.